Shius - Antipsychotics

I can't sleep, the night's growing longer everyday
Any dreams that I have will become nightmares as I
I take more medication, antipsychotics are my drug
Gotta sleep before the panic, the panic sets in

Now as I lay me down to sleep, I pray the lord my soul to keep
And if I die before I wake, I pray the lord my soul to take

And I can't sleep

Panic disorder, I close my eyes and try and fail
To fall asleep through the night, nocturnal panic attacks
Wake me up - I keep falling and I can't get up
Night terrors, nightmares, another attack
To top it off when I wake up, I wake up exhausted
I will rest when I die, I will rest when I die

Every night is the same, when will it ever leave me be
All I want is a night where I can rest in peace
And my trial of death, just leaves me tired and scared
If I can't even sleep then god just let me die right now
I just want to rest! I just wanna be unconscious
I don't care for dreams, I'd rather sleep like death
So I drink pills to sleep, I need pills to fucking sleep
I can't try to relax, as my reality starts to crack

Antipsychotics are my drug, withdrawal symptoms with any of my luck
With this sickness I'm broken and I'm scared
That if I drop them I will be ill prepared
Antipsychotics are my drug, withdrawal symptoms with any of my luck
With this sickness I'm broken and I'm scared
That if I drop them I will not be prepared

To sleep

Panic disorder, I close my eyes and try and fail
To fall asleep through the night, nocturnal panic attacks
Wake me up - I keep falling and I can't get up
Night terrors, nightmares, another attack
To top it off when I wake up, I wake up exhausted
I will rest when I die, I will rest when I die

I cannot deal with my lack of sleep, hallucinations
And I can't deal with the fact I get nocturnal attacks
But the worst aren't the nightmares, or waking up exhausted
It's these dreams that I can't handle, these sweet dreams of you
Maybe I'd rather see nightmares, I think I would be less afraid
And I'd rather have attacks, before I see your face
It's the pain that I can't take, dreams of trust and maybe love
When I know that you are better off, with somebody else
Somebody else
Somebody else

But can I not think about that, for one waking moment
I just want to fucking shut my eyes and drift off to sleep
Fuck these nightmares I am tired of their violence and
Fuck these panic attacks, I'm unhinged 'cause of them
And I will fucking die before I get any peace
I just want to fucking sleep, I just wanna fucking sleep
Now it's 3 am, I'm looking up at the ceiling
Feel like I'm dead and inside and I still cannot fall asleep

Panic disorder, I close my eyes and try and fail
To fall asleep through the night, nocturnal panic attacks
Wake me up - I keep falling and I can't get up
Night terrors, nightmares, another attack
To top it off when I wake up, I wake up exhausted
I will rest when I die, I will rest when I die

Now as I lay me down to sleep, I pray the lord my soul to keep
And if I die before I wake, I pray the lord my soul to take

Written by:
Julia Sakamoto

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