Kozmik - Koalas

FUCK!
I had to let loose
So you know I’m writing real
And I’m writing feels
It was right ya feel me
Coming from a place
Where I hurt the most
And the horror show
Starts to haunt me cause I’m talking ghosts
Yeah I’m talking demons
From my past believe me
This my story from the source
Where a nigga had to piece everything
On his own all alone
Lost pup in the pound no home
Cause the fam really couldn’t understand
A damn kid
Kinda forced to see he lived
Where the ones he loved the most
Could be gone in an instance
So he felt abandoned in his home
Why couldn’t you be here right now
Many questions I need to ask can you please come down
And shine a little light
On my life
I could really fucking use
A lot of insight
Let’s take it all back for me
9 years old in ya bed he sees
A lot of something that he shouldn’t see
So cold to the feel
Shit got too real for me
And how could I just forget when the person
That he spent everyday wit laying dead what is this shit
Man god why you gotta do this
What I do to deserve this my whole fam hurting
I’m alive that’s a blessing but thinking back to that day I think ya might have cursed me
Now I gotta life wit no momma
She sacrificed everything for her I honor
Her everyday
And i always think and pray
Bout how her son can fucking be great
And we fucking miss you
God called you home back when life was peaceful
Fuck
I look to the sky
Thinking why why
Why we gotta die die die
Couldn’t there just be another way
So we can have you back today
So you can be here back with me
So we can just sit down and speak
Really miss ya voice yeah
And all ya warmth yeah
Wanna go back man
Damn damn damn
Please excuse me if I get emotional
Now soul to soul
How would you feel if ya whole world came crashing down
Life turned to madness
Fucking life long sadness
I’ll never know the feeling of true growth
Ain’t here to see me grow to a man
And after all the time that I spent
Realizing that I’m living events that she would miss
Her son on stage is one
And turning that tassel when that chapters done
Obtaining my L’s as well
And wit her gone there were times that I almost failed
She couldn’t pick me up
No words to encourage me
Separated from my sister know I love you T
We gone continue to get thru this
I swear I see her in you
Ya twins I swear true and
Aunt and grandma turned my mommas
My uncle like my father
5 in a 2 family in the ghetto
Hella drama
We stuck together cause when we together we had no other
We connected cause of you that bond is like no other
I cry cause I can’t see you
I cry cause I can’t hear you
The last words that we said will always ring forever
Those words weigh on me
Everyday for me
I smile but the pain only
Make me grit my teeth
Pondering
And realizing how much you meant to me
My rock turned to coal and burned
Cremated ashes in a vase
Rise like the Phoenix
We’ll meet again some day
I look to the sky
Thinking why why
Why we gotta die die die
Couldn’t there just be another way
So we can have you back today
So you can be here back with me
So we can just sit down and speak
I really miss ya voice yeah
And all ya warmth yeah
Wanna go back man
Damn damn damn
Life ain’t been the same
And I hope you can hear and understand that it hasn’t gotten easier
But imma hustle for you
Make you proud
Rest up momma
February 18th
I love you

Written by:
Sean Hairston

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