Fienyx - Stigmata

Silence... The realest shit I never spoke
Shut the fuck up
Yeah... I told you I'd be back
Left for dead near the exit steps beholden to the crack
Dragged to the lab, head kept coldly in the cap
Strapped to a pad, yet 'least there's something to hold me in the trap
Just phonies in the pack. Spliffs twisted, like, "Get lifted!"
Dismissive 'cause his sickness don't exist on his pigment
Like, "Addiction's for the weak and the wicked." Think I'm listless
'Cause I listen to physicians with the sinister mission of enlistment?
They call me timid, convinced it's all in my mind
Then got the nerve to turn and tell me all I need is god
Shit, you think I asked for this? You blasphemous bitch
You’re a follower, a fraud. Lost if there's no ass you can kiss
I've endured psychosis, bipolar roller coasters
And learned to hold my own afloat in an ocean of vultures
So who are you to diminish the damn path that I’ve been through?
'Cause you’re simple and can't imagine half of that info
People like me don't make it past fifteen
A decade later, I've spent half of that shit clean
I'm not street, but I ain’t pristine, so spare your thoughts shit streak
And peep trajectories next time you cross to come get me
Bitch
This why, I've been lifeless, beat chest
This why, I've been writing, deep breaths
A taste of wasted. Yeah, this what I’ve been waiting for
A wayward core. The fuck you know about chasing more?
Bruised, made me wane. Yeah, that's what the weights/waits were for
The bane of my existence. Now watch this faceless vagrant soar
I was down and out, begging for your help
Though I don't blame you for leaving, caught in the center of my Hell
Had to flee, so be it, but why'd it have to be like this?
Unwavering, thrown to the wake but couldn't loan me a life vest?
Like you ain’t have a landline or memorize my coordinates?
Wanted to forget even if it meant my death would be timely yet unfortunate
Prayed I’d sink without a bubble to betray you
Well this is for my double and all the trouble that he saved you
The night I alluded suicide and never heard back
High off my ass, cruising in circles in search of a smooth crash
Thankfully noticed last moment you don't deserve that
Not 'cause you don't deserve bad—you ain’t worth my urn with your bird ass
Heart turned black. Cracked, while you surged the perfect exit
'Fore you kill yourself for a person, make sure they're worth the effort
Couple years down the line, shit, you wouldn't of minded
Would've blindsided the afterlife if you ever took a real dive, miss
But you? Crooked, spineless. Here's a hook for your highness
Hell, I fucking tried, you can't kill a hooker with kindness
Fine, look at my grind like you’re the cause of it all
But you weren't there for the growth, you were just the cause of the fall
Bitch
This why, I've been lifeless, beat chest
This why, I've been writing, deep breaths
A taste of wasted. Yeah, this what I’ve been waiting for
A wayward core. The fuck you know about chasing more?
Bruised, made me wane. Yeah, that's what the weights/waits were for
The bane of my existence. Now watch this faceless vagrant soar

Written by:
J.C. Hall

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