Lil JJ Reynolds - Suicidal Depression (feat. Hysteria)

You ever have a feeling you were lost?
Broken inside and everyone you'd come across
Seems to be happy but inside you know their not
Their as broken as you're hiding the pain, so they don't talk
You walk around with the fake smile, helping others
You should help yourself fight out this hole that you discovered
That you dove head first in like you were hiding undercover
Trying to escape the pain of your broken mother
Cause your father split when you were born, you never knew him
And that pain weighs heavy on your mother, she's going thru it
Popping pain killers to ease the pain, drinking to make it numb the rage
Fighting the demons everyday, suicide's a blade away
You're mad, you want revenge and I get it
You should, we're only human but we should be putting more of our time and effort
Towards a healthy mind, instead of spreading hate in every message
And neglecting the fact that we aren't gonna be here forever
I've watched my dad die, I know the pain that resides
When you lose someone dear to you, It's so important to your life
So let me ask you a question, "Is the answer suicide?"
It doesn't have to be, we always have someone by our side
Someone that's struggling, going thru the same things
So reach out, I promise you'll be amazed at what it brings
And they bring closure or possibly some happiness
It may be even both but I promise you, "it's immaculate"
This suicidal community is bigger than you think
If we all came together, we could stop these tragedies
If you ever feel alone, then you can message my page
I'll do my best to talk you out of all your anguish and pain
You ever just want to give up
When you fall and can't get up?, no
And you feel so numb inside
You ever want to stop trying?
And you feel like dying, oh
That feeling hurts when you're dealing with depression
Ya, some days 'I wish my lonely body didn't trip
The second when I feel depression swirling up to twist
The brain inside my head that told my heart "It wants to die"
My heart was trying to cheer it up by telling me to write
But even on the times when I write, I feel depressed
I even told myself to not do something 'I'll regret
My life is a target cause the devil wants to blast
I wanna blast too but something told me to relax and fight
Even if I run my strength to the ground, all these sounds
Are the reason why I keep making frowns at the clouds 'till the rain comes down
I wonder how
I'll survive 'if I've been an cursed child
I gave myself advice cause I never had a father
To help me with my problems that turned me to a monster from melancholy
Now I speak these chapters before and then after
The pain is like cancer, killing people's standards with slander
Can anybody save me?
I'm so depressed, I want suicide to waste me
You wanna know what pain is, listen to my heart
The pumping is the pain 'I've been feeling from the start of depression
You ever just want to give up?
When you fall and can't get up, no
And you feel so numb inside
You ever want to stop trying?
And you feel like dying, oh
That feeling hurts when you're dealing with depression

Written by:
Jordan Reynolds, Tyler Bellio

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