Sik World - Several Years

Lately all I feel is pain
Feels like my heart doesn't beat the same
I wanna give up and I just feel stuck
In a life that I know I can not change
I'm really lonely and feel drained
Sometimes I feel like a mistake
I just sit and dwell in my trauma
My life's full a problems
I feel like I might break
Tried to move on but I just can't
Break down after break down and some days
I wish I could run away, just to escape
And feel at ease even if it means one day
Where did my life go wrong
I was a happy teen and now I'm an adult
Who sad as hell and always at a loss
No one tell I'm drowning in my thoughts
I'm still lost tryna find purpose
After all of these years I'm still searching
Hope you forgive me for being a burden
Self love is something that I'm still learning
And I know I lie when I tell you I'm fine
Cuz no body knows I'm struggling inside
Sorry if you see me cry, It's just I finally realize

It's been several years
Since I felt okay, I'm losing my way and
It's been several years
Since I've been on meds, I feel so depressed and
It's been several years
Since I felt alive, there's no tears to cry and
It's been several years
Since I had a friend, they came and went

Lately, I feel so depressed
Tried to get help but I'm still a mess
I don't ever rest, I guess, I'm stressed
Got my head down, hands gripping my neck
Did I take my last breath
Did I walked my last step
I'm alive but inside I am dead
Look I lied, I'm not fine
Cuz my mind Is a wreck
I saw pictures of me in elementary
I don't remember teachers ever telling me
Id be a adult who senses people's energy
Being an empath attracts those who lack empathy
When I look back, my past
Shows me bad memories
Plus It's so sad, i had
To withstand, everything
All For my last, ex damn
Thought you'd stand, next to me
You stab my back, and that
Hurt me bad mentally
It definitely changed me but I forgive you
I understand now that you had your own Issues
Your fear of abandonment, really convinced you
That you weren't enough, for the love I would give you
I tried, but I broke myself tryna fix you
And I feel hurt that you couldn't commit to
Me or the love I would give you
Nobody knows what I been thru

It's been several years
Since I felt okay, i'm loosing my way and
It's been several years
Since I've been on meds, i feel so depressed and
It's been several years
Since I felt alive, there's no tears to cry and
It's been several years
Since I had a friend, they came and went

Written by:
JONATHON QUILES, NEJC RAZPOTNIK

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