CULL3N - EDEN

Both my parents raised me
Taught me how to
Be a good kid
As a baby
Mom and dad
Doing all they can
On the daily
Now I ain't saying
We was whipping
Cars like Mercedes
But they made sure
To show me
Peace love and safety
But lately I've
Been going through
Darkness man it's shady
Everything in my life
Turned around it's crazy
I experienced all
Kinds of pain but listen

Underlying sin in my heart
But I couldn't say
What it is
But I knew about
The things I did
See everybody thinks
That I'm this
Happy picture of a kid
But they don't understand
My struggle with sin
Man I got
To keep composure
Because I can
Feel the weight
Of my past
On my shoulders
Man this winter cold
But it keeps getting colder
Running out of time
Because I keep getting older
Trying to fight
My battles on my own
Like a soldier
Ain't walking
In the spirit
I'll never succeed
I'll just remain feeling lost
And I'll never be free
I know he's calling my name
But I ain't
Moving my feet
What if I
Give all I have
Just to fall
To my knees
Because I've been trying
For so long
But nothing works
Darkness filling my room
And it keeps getting worse
I even struggle
Just thinking I
Belong in the church
Because all my
Thoughts in my head
Tell me that
I am a curse
That I'm a
Failure and a fraud
I'm just a
Little fat kid
That sucks at writing bars
A failure to my friends
Family and my mom
I'll never see a victory
And get closer to God
Man I just need
Time, but I'm losing it
Killing myself with the flesh
But I'm pursuing it
Every single doubt
In my thoughts
I'm producing it
I wish I had God
But it feels like
I'm losing him

But if I give up
I know that I'll lose
All these decisions are hard
And I don't know
What to do
I only got two roads
Two paths to choose
I know that
One leads to death
The other leads to fruit
I want that
Love, joy, peace, and patience
And I've been praying
For the spirit
To fill me
So I can elevate but
I can feel something
Is pulling me down
It's pulling me down
It wants me
Just to stay on the ground
But I can't wait
I got a
Kingdom to make
Man I can't wait
I know there's lives
To be saved
And I can't, stay
I know this
Life isn't mine
He made a way
I know that
I'm meant to shine
I'm going back
To the old me
I know he told me
That there's nothing
I can do
That would make me unholy
And when I'm feeling down
I know that
He's there to hold me
I'm about to give it
All to the son
One and only

Written by:
Cullen Sizemore

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