Refractor - Tidal Wave (feat. Nofen)

Recently I been thinking a lot, things that I been missing
Opportunities I miss the shots but it's kinda hard to take them
I can't just go to the doc, get a boatload of some medication check the clock
No time for celebration
Chances come quick I keep messing them up
Wins coming small and never enough
Feel like the older I get the less I can trust
Dreams come a dime a dozen blessed if you get to live up
See myself working a 9 to 5 yeah that ain't the vision
But it's where I'll be if I keep staring at the television
Wanna feel alive and not stuck in work to stay living
Got the dream and it haunts me every night when I'm bedridden
Somniphobia fear my dreams
Avoid the bed for days so I don't have to fucking sleep
It's like Elm Street with Freddy yeah the vision's always haunting me
When I see the light they drag me back off my feet
Stuck under a tidal wave
I can't help but stay the same
Afraid yet not so afraid
Some day all this shit will change
But for now I'm stuck under this wave
Stuck in the same ways, the same days
Groundhog I try and do it different but I end up in the same place
Yeah this ain't a sane place, Mind pull a fast one
Tryna save face playing all these games
Games, tryna drown me in a wave of sorrow
What I do today weighs the same as tomorrow waved
All I can think to do pick up another bottle
Drink till my liver runs red with liquor and rot
So let the river run red and wash away my soul
Styx in the river come take the pain away I know
Leave with my heel Achilles killing blow it's all for show
Curtains call, It's a faux, curtains call it's a foe
It's my own personality
Struggles and it baffles me, How am I mad at me
Drowning like I'm out at sea, waves crashing down on me
Open mouth I cannot breathe, a fucked up fantasy
(Fucked up fantasy)
Stuck under a tidal wave
I can't help but stay the same
Afraid yet not so afraid
Some day all this shit will change
But for now I'm stuck under this wave

Written by:
James Stickland, Noah Aldous

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Lyrics © O/B/O DistroKid

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