vYPa OG - Depression

At the peak of this building
Came here on my own
Been going through so much
I feel so all alone
I write all these words
Incase I never make it home
The thought of just jumping
Breaking bones of my own
I'm thinking suicide and there's nothing I can do
So where do I go or who do I talk to
Somebody please help
I need help
Please help me
Somebody please help
I need help
Please help me
Somebody please help
So tell me if I'm right or wrong
Should I right my wrong
May I take my life and let this be my last song
And blame depression for the actions I'm about to take
Or the fact that I'm human
Bound to mistakes
I'm I the only one affected by this mental illnesses
Or really wanna speak about it but I keep my silence
Hoping courage keeps me going
Show no sign of weakness
What makes me sink in my lies
Pretend and act so nice
For I was born a Ghanaian or I'm black from white
Is it okay to tell you I'm going through depression
And not perceive uninterest from your facial expression
Sensitively negative feedbacks poisons my heart
I ain't even exaggerating that's a real fact
Don't make me feel crazy
Don't make me feel weird
A rope could be around my neck because of what I heard
Difficult in concentrating
Mind's on many things
Like a switch on and off goes my mood swings
Woke up feeling positive free and so high as a kite
Bad news pops up and turns my day to night
Bother to ask why I'm growing lean or eat so light
Rather you answer to yourself suggesting I'm on diet
These are foods for thought
I would have taken a bite
It's so unfortunate I lost my appetite
Sometimes on top of my voice I wanna scream loud
Excessive cries flood my room
By luck I never drowned
When society discourage you to be yourself
Knowing you will be no help I disconnect myself
I disconnect from the connect
I disconnect from the connect
I disconnect from the connect
Never to be a plug
How do I deal with this
Did u also go through this
I've been mute for too long that's what my problem is
Too many voices in my ear I guess I'm insane
Maybe your story can give me a chance to live again
I've got a million reasons why I think I shouldn't breathe
Prolly you'll be the reason why I'll smile and show my teeth
Stand back on my feet and never to feel defeat
Give me a brush and speak while I paint all your stories
A perfect picture when I glance takes away my worries
One day I'd reflect to the past digging through my memory
And testify to my kids on how your Portrait saved me
So if you're listening to this or reading it through my phone
Let these verses guide you and never leave you alone
You might feel depressed because you have a broken heart
Partner left
Body and soul just fell apart
Or maybe you just having a bad day
Dropped out of school and facing life the hard way
Fee payment a problem
Would have been kicked out anyway
Perhaps it's the work stress
No where to find money
Seven kids at home
How do you feed the family
Did you loose someone you couldn't live without
That your tongue felt bitter and couldn't move your mouth
Are you in your late twenties or something above
You pray to God for marriage
The only hope that you have
Oh so you the single mother people mock as born one
Or diagnosed doctors saying nothing can be done
Are you barren or you just became a widow
This room of hope is so dark
Not a single window
Its possibly none of what I've mentioned
But help comes when you seek attention
Never get high nor addicted on concoctions
For the sake of getting rid of these tensions
When you abuse substance to forget about your pain
Comes the moment depression messes with you brain
Most important pray to God for he will hear you out
In his name wonders happen and that's no doubt
Now if you've ever been approached help a poor soul
For the one in grief is who we console
Encouraging me to speak
Heal my emotions when it's weak
The mental battles I have fought
Help me modify my thoughts
Be a friend
Be a family
Be what you wanna be
Bring the positive that keeps away the negativity
At the apex of this building
Eight floors beneath me
From here the view is pretty
Not for long would I see
So I send to you this song
Save yourself to save me
The mind heals depending on what you feed it with
Put yourself in my shoes
And I just might talk about it

Written by:
Prince Orison

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