Just Raej - Scream

Reflecting back on wishes
When I never thought I'd doubt her
But I caught her in the kitchen
Now the wishing doesn't matter
And my anger has no mission
And the tension doesn't scatter
Since her lies are not forgiven
Then it only makes me madder
And I, can’t believe I caught her cheating
And I, see that scene keep repeating
And I, can’t forget about her screaming
And I, hear it even when I’m dreaming

I had visions that these moments
Were the fragments of forevers
Now she cries out these atonements
Like they should just make it better
I remember when her begging
Only seemed to make me wetter
Now the feelings that I’m getting
Are the ones that seep and fester
And she, should have known not to do it
And she, took our home and made it putrid
And she, told me everything was fine
And she, took my life and took my time

I can say the only truths
She ever told me were her passions
All the other words she spewed
Were just distractions from her actions
Though her tongue was smooth vermouth
If we were talking bout abstractions
She would start to stutter through
All other mentions of attractions
And we, had been through so much together
And we, thought that we were getting better
And we, saw our future fall apart
And we, should have never let it start

Back when we had just begun
To think about a new relation
She said she was out for fun
Like we were planning a vacation
At that point I should've run
And just forgotten my fixation
But I flew into the sun
And now I'm facing this damnation
And this, isn’t what I had imagined
And this, should have never ever happened
And this, was never really all my fault
And this, is really what love costs

So I sit
And I think about it
And I wonder who is
To blame for all my own fears
It’s no fair
And I sink
Further into my dreams
Past the realm of all things
And I see this sad scene
And I scream

I remember on that day
My boss had told me I was worthless
Lost a 20 on the train
And cracked the screen on my new surface
Lost my earring down the drain
And couldn't find a greater purpose
Then I come home in the rain
And after that I’m not too certain
And I, can’t believe I caught her cheating
And I, see that scene keep repeating
And I, can’t forget about her screaming
And I, hear it even when I’m dreaming

I know she wasn’t perfect
So I never asked that of her
But my heart was still determined
So a lie became my Lover
Thought that I could take the flirting
But my heart it only Suffered
In the end she wasn't worth it
And that's why I had to cut her
And she, should have known not to do it
And she, took our home and made it putrid
And she, told me everything was fine
And she, took my life and took my time

So I held that shun fuji
in the middle of my kitchen
And I felt a little woozy
Saw her body still twitching
Felt like I was in a movie
And the plot had just thickened
And their blood was red like rubies
I just played out what was written
And we, had been through so much together
And we, thought that we were getting better
And we, saw our future fall apart
And we, should have never let it start

Since their clothes had been forgotten
Each stab was like cutting butter
Felt like bleeding out a toxin
Felt like cleaning up a clutter
Stayed there til the stench was rotten
Til I saw the flashing colors
Then she sputtered through the sobbing
"I l-love you" with a stutter
And this, isn’t what I had imagined
And this, should have never ever happened
And this, was never really all my fault
And this, is really what love costs

So I sit
And I think about it
And I wonder who is
To blame for all my own fears
It’s no fair
And I sink
Further into my dreams
Past the realm of all things
And I see this sad scene
And I scream

Written by:
Duval A. Clear, Phillip R Gonzalez, Stephen S. Stricklin, Vinson Johnson

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